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Something about the rain… 🌧️ Allowing the rain to wash over me is so healing in many ways… pretty sure my neighbor’s thought I was crazy. But someway somehow it connected me to you in some strange way. I am homesick for a home I will never be able to return. YOU were my home. If I could change it I would in a blink of an eye have you back and life back to the “normal” we had. Until we meet again 💔❤️‍🩹 I will miss you the rest of my days #youngwidow #widowmomlife #widow #RememberingQ #griefofmyhusband #griefandloss #griefjourney #widowsoftiktok #crazybusymama #crazybusygriefmama

A Father’s Day Trubute ❤️‍🩹 to Q “It Is Well with my Soul” To read stories comment “Q” and I will would love to share a design from my children’s hearts. #CrazyBusyMama #widow #griefjourney #widowmomlife #youngwidows #rememberingQ #widowsoftiktok

Oh the way you looked at me 💔❤️‍🩹🥹 that’s one of the things I miss so much. 😢It’s been a little over a year… and it still feels like yesterday in so many ways. 💔 Q you were one of the good ones!! Miss you like crazy! Can’t wait for the day we are reunited! So thankful for the cross ✝️

Seize the moment.. the opportunity! Live a life full of adventure enjoy the ups and learn to lean on Him through the valleys Say yes and figure it out as you go! #crazybusymama #widowmomlife #griefandloss #widowsoftiktok

Grief doesn’t come with a handbook. Some days I’m in my sweats crying on the kitchen floor. Other days, I’m putting on mascara and choosing to show up anyway. Both are holy. Both are healing. This one’s for all the mamas carrying both heartbreak and hope. 💔✨ Widow and Looking for resources comment “WIDOW” be happy to share what is helping me to find community. #crazybusymama #widowsinglemom #youngwidows #widowlife #widowmom #widow

I thought losing you was the worst thing, but it's learning to live without you The shock is starting to wear off and I am left with the reality of my life. Ours Hopes and Dreams gone in an instant. The struggles of dealing with memories being made and milestones of our kids lives and you not physically being here. Waking and going to bed alone, adjusting to new routines as an only parent without you, not wanting to do this alone but having no choice but to. Waking up and finding ways to move forward each day without you by my side. This is just a bit of what life is like learning to live without you here by my side. What keeps me going is that one day in the sweet by and by I will see you again. Until we meet again my love ❤️‍🩹 

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When my husband passed await unexpectedly, I remember my body and mind just went numb an absolute out of body experience of not knowing which direction was up. 💔❤️‍🩹 The first thing I did was lay over his cold lifeless body and prayed out loud giving God thanks for gifting me with my best friend, partner, lover and father of my children and for the cross!! 3 of my kids were standing behind me and one was driving back in the wee hours of the night from college. The room was thick with silence as I could even hear the sheriff who came to the scene sobbing in the background. If am being honest, I don’t know how I had the strength to that. I felt like screaming weeping and desired to lie next to him and die myself. Praising God and thanking Him for Q was the last thing I wanted to do, not because he wasn’t worthy of praise and Q worthy of the gratitude it was simply because I knew my life the one I had always known was dead too. This has been the absolute hardest year of my life … and I look back on that moment of trying to resuscitate Q, his death and this past year God has been with me very step of the way. This song resonates with me so much … BUT GOD!! He is making a WAY! I may have died that day… but I am a woman who still believes. Believes He has a plan to prosper me. Believes He is making a way equipping me with exactly what I need to raise my children alone. Believes He is giving me and my kids purpose through our pain. That night in our bedroom floor Q lay lifeless in his physical but I believe our worst day was Qs best day and he is now fishing 🎣 along with Peter and walking along si th Jesus. God is faithful He will see us through… I may never know why God needed Q more than me, but I trust that He has us and He will and always remain faithful. No matter what your circumstances may be… GOD is still Good and He is Working all things out for Good! He went to the cross for not just Q or me, but you too friend. I pray in sharing my grief publicly … I make a kingdom impact! It is my goal to make heaven crowded. ✝️💗 Until we meet again one day Q … will forever miss you 💔❤️‍🩹✝️ #crazybusymama #widowmomlife #widowsinglemom #youngwidows #widowlife #widowmom #widowsoftiktok

I have gotten a lot of comments or people asking me why “I look so happy” or how I still am posting. It is honestly crazy to me what people have said. Grief is not a linear thing. It comes in waves and unfortunately life still keeps going on. So we as a family have to do what we can to get by. I still gotta do work, kids gotta go to school, sports, or whatever that may be. So yeah at some points we are happy and enjoying a time even though we wish Q was here. We have to be able to heal and figure out ways to enjoy the beauty of life while being able to deal with the sadness that comes with it. Grief is an absolute monster! The moment you smile you are instantly sad the moment you feel joy you have a stabbing pain of what will never be. 💔❤️‍🩹 Grief is messy… I choose to embrace the messy cry laugh and try to keep stepping one step at a time. So thankful for my kids. #widowmomlife #widowsoftiktok #widowlife #widow

✈️ and we are off… 🌴🥥🍹 #crazybusymama #widowmomlife #widowlife #widowsoftiktok

No matter what He is worthy to be praised! In the midst of your storm praise Him … for the things He has done, the things He is doing and for what He will do! A proclamation of Faith that He will never leave you or forsake you. Thank You Lord for all you have done for the life you have given me with Q, my kids and the blessings you have in store. It may not be what I envisioned but it is exactly where you want me to be right here and now. Help me to be filled up by YOU Lord and overflow with blessings to share your HOPE and amazing love! Psalms 105:1 Oh, give thanks to the Lord! Call upon His name; Make known His deeds among the peoples! #CrazyBusyMama #griefandlossjourney #youngwidowsoftiktok

If I can do hard things 💔you can do hard things ❤️‍🩹💔❤️‍🩹 Deep breaths through tears and all take the first step #widow #widowmomlife #widowlife #widowsoftiktok #crazybusymama

Honest moment- Wrestling between anger and apathy… Have you been there? #widowmomlife #youngwidows #widow #soloparenting #griefandloss